SUCCESS IS SEXY

This morning I am reflecting back on my life.
I am 43 years old. My desires are strong, my will is strong. I am determined, with a silent but growing fierceness. Some moments I think, "Hey girl, your married, have four kids, this is to late to be getting in this game. You should be content with just losing weight."

When I was younger I wanted this for the attention, and was afraid to have it for the very same reason.  But, I am not afraid anymore and  I am not content with just losing weight.  I am hungry for a fit body.  It is not only about the sexiness of it, the feeling of it, but about the brutal accomplishment!  To take this body, that has gone through more than I can ever mention, and mold it, sculpt into a fine chiseled product.   To have the strength to hold my own weight, lift my own weight. The endurance to run, walk, climb, squat or whatever. Then there is the message that your body says to others when you care for it. I take care of what is mines, I take charge of what is in my possession, I care about me.

When I was 300 lbs, I would look at thin, small people and say I doesn't cost them anything to move. What I meant by that is, they at least appeared to be light on their feet. It was costing me pain and lots of energy to just stand up! I want that feeling of being agile and limber. Gracefully crossing a room with confidence that if I do trip and fall, I can extend out my arms and body can brace and take the fall.

 I know BETTER now. Wishing for it will not bring it to me. What I seek, is not just a smaller size, but a powerful fit body.  It will cost me to get that light, powerful look and feeling. It will cost me sacrifice, some pain, self denial, eating right for me, focus and determination.

When I see a woman's fit body I think she has IT!  She has temerity, tenacity and the audacity to display it. That WILL be me. I WILL apprehend and then be #CapturedByWhatImAfter.

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